A New Day

Okay so I hate to write about starting to eat healthy or be on a diet or lose weight because this is concret. As in I can look back at this and see how long it has been since I wanted to start something. ACCOUTABLITY!! Yup sounds weird but it is true for me!!

So here goes nothing!! I want to lose weight and start to feel better about my self. I know what everyone says "give your self a year. it took 9 months to put on the weight 12 months to take it off" or "you look great". But I am just not to believing either of those yet. I know that I am nursing and "they" (whoever THEY are) say that your body will tend to keep about 10 pounds on while nursing!! I dont see that happen to everyone so I want to be the one that it doesnt happen too. I did Weight Watchers before I was pregnant and I lost about 15lbs. I loved it when I got down to my goal weight. Then we moved and I lost my WW buddy and then about 6 months later I was pregnant. I did lose all the weight with Pierson, gained 50 and lost it. I only gained 40 with Jensen and yet to lose 20.

I really dont have time to workout. I would love to run and train for a half marathon or even a 5k. I know crazy excuse but when nursing you really dont want to go for a jog!!! With Jensen changing his schedule so often right now I have been more tired lately. I think I'm not getting enough of the deep REM sleep, but who knows. In my spare time and yes I do have some in the day I want to craft!! or clean!!! I know that if I exercise I will feel better and have more energy--duh!!

I only nursed Pierson for about 2 or 3 months so I have had a taste of freedom. Not in a bad way but just in a good non-tied down way!! I want to try and keep up nursing till a year but day by day we will see. In saying all that I dont feel like I could workout at any old time. Maybe I'm wrong but thats how I feel. Okay enough ranting and excuses. Today March 22, 2011 I want to lose 20lbs. It took me 15 weeks to lose 15 so lets say 3 months goal.